I’m not new to this.
This isn’t my first restart — it’s probably closer to my 50-11th.
But here I am again. Starting over. Choosing to come back to something I know works… because I need it. Not because of some magical number on a scale, but because I’m working really hard on myself right now. On who I want to be. On how I want to show up — for myself and for the women I coach.
🌀 What My Body’s Been Through
At my lowest, I was about 165 pounds.
A size 10. I was happy there — not perfect, but comfortable. That was 7 or 8 years ago.
I floated around a size 12 for a while… until 2019. That year broke me. I had a mental breakdown, and my body held on to all of it. I gained about 15–20 pounds.
Then COVID hit.
I remember buying “quarantine snacks.” I also remember eating them all in a single day. My emotional eating was completely out of control. It wasn’t about hunger — it was about survival. Comfort. Numbing.
I honestly don’t even know what my highest weight was. I just know I’m sitting at 215 pounds right now, and it’s the most uncomfortable I’ve ever felt in my own skin.
😞 What It Feels Like Now
Nothing fits.
I’m wearing loose joggers everywhere — not because they’re trendy, but because they’re the only thing that doesn’t dig into my stomach.
I avoid friends. I avoid family. I’m hesitant to put myself out there in my business because… let’s be real. Who wants a nutrition coach who still looks overweight?
But I’m done letting shame keep me silent. I know what I bring to the table. And I know exactly what works for me — when I get out of my own way.
🎯 What I Actually Want
No, I don’t expect to get back to 165.
But I do want to feel good in my body again. Strong. Comfortable.
I want to slide back into that size 12 skirt that’s been hanging in my room since I went to Kenya. Not because it’s magical, but because it represents me — the version of me who feels grounded, confident, and alive.
🥩 Why Carnivore?
Because it works. Period.
It gives me mental clarity. It supports my gut. It’s free of the foods I’ve become sensitive to in perimenopause. It’s not fancy or trendy or complicated.
And the truth? I’m only four days in right now — and the food noise is already gone.
I skipped my ketones yesterday (because recovery is real), but I haven’t had the urge to binge or boredom-snack since Thursday. That used to be daily.
That silence in my head? That peace in my body?
That’s why I keep coming back to this.
It’s meat, eggs, cheese, butter — the basics. The stuff that brings me back to myself.
🫶 So Why Now?
Because I’m ready to stop hiding.
Because I’ve spent enough time starting and stopping.
Because I finally believe I’m worth the consistency — even when life is chaotic, even when healing feels slow.
This isn’t a crash diet. It’s a return to what I know heals me.
And if you’re reading this thinking, “That sounds like me…” — then let’s start together.
My Macro & Meal Plan Bundle is dropping this week to make this easy. And if you’re looking for accountability and structure? I’ve got a few 1:1 coaching spots open.
You don’t need a perfect plan. You just need to begin.
💡 Coach’s Note: Why This Reset Actually Works
This isn’t just about food — it’s about fueling your cells and protecting your mind.
One of the biggest takeaways I’ve learned from Dr. Christopher Palmer’s book Brain Energy is this:
🧠 Mental health is metabolic health.
And it all starts with your mitochondria.
When your mitochondria — the energy factories inside every cell — aren’t working well, it’s not just your body that struggles.
Your mood, focus, energy, and impulse control start to crash too.
Carnivore is one of the most supportive ways to nourish your mitochondria:
✔️ It removes the processed foods and irritants that cause oxidative stress
✔️ It delivers the fats and proteins your cells use to produce ATP
✔️ It helps regulate insulin, cortisol, and inflammation — the big disruptors
Since starting this reset, I’ve noticed the food noise drop dramatically.
The urge to binge? Gone.
The brain fog? Lifting.
The “I can’t do this” voice? Finally quiet.
I’m not doing this for aesthetics.
I’m doing it to get my mind back — and for the first time in a long time, I can feel her coming online again.
📚 Resources & What I’m Reading
I don’t just coach — I study. Here are a few resources that continue to shape how I approach mental health, metabolism, and sustainable fat loss for women in midlife:
- 🧠 Brain Energy by Dr. Christopher Palmer
→ How mitochondrial health drives both mental and metabolic health - 🥩 Change Your Diet, Change Your Mind by Dr. Georgia Ede
→ A deep dive into how modern food disrupts mood, energy, and focus - 🍽️ The Obesity Code by Dr. Jason Fung
→ The truth about insulin resistance, stubborn fat, and how to reset - 🧬 Mitochondrial Etiology of Neuropsychiatric Disorders — Pei & Wallace, Biological Psychiatry (2018)
- 🔬 Ketogenic Diets and Mitochondrial Function — Paoli et al., Current Opinion in Clinical Nutrition (2014)
These ideas show up in my coaching, my own reset journey, and the way I help women rebuild their energy — from the inside out.
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