I’ve been doing A LOT of examining to find my why in business. Everyone says find your why. In his book Millionaire Success Habits by Dean Graziosi says to ask yourself ‘why’ eight times.
“I want to make money. Great. WHY do I want to make money?” do it eight times. I’ve done that. And yeah. Money is where I started. I think a lot start there. But my ultimate why? It’s A LOT deeper than that!
When I was a child, I vividly remember my parents buying me a purple radio. I kinda hated it because it wasn’t the boom box that was so popular on the late 80’s 😂. But I treasured that little radio and never told them I didn’t like it because it was small & purple. My belief then was that they had saved HARD to buy it for me and that sacrifice scared me. I kept that radio waaay past ida life because I didn’t want to trash something my parents worked so hard for.
My whole life I have lived in a place of fear. Fear of not having enough. Fear of not being able to afford what I want or need when I need it. I still live in terror of my car being repossessed. Of my fridge going out and having to immediately find the money to buy a new one (hint- I’ll be living out of a cooler for a whole, cuz I KNOW I don’t have the cash ready at hand for a new one eight this moment!). I can’t fathom the idea of moving to a better neighborhood because I don’t know how or where I’ll come up with security deposit and first & last month rent. I’m freakin 42 years old and still have my moms credit card for emergencies!
I also want freedom. Now this one is a bit harder to follow, but let me try. When I was 15 ½, my dad started charging me rent because I was legal to enter the workforce. I got a job as a receptionist in a law office. They did taxes there, and I learned how to do bookkeeping. When they closed the office, all I knew how to do was reception (which I hated) and bookkeeping (which I was good at, and was indifferent to). So….every job after that was accounting. I learned I HATED accounting, but felt trapped in the field. I mean…who changes careers (successful careers, I might add) after 40? Was this a mid-life crisis? Was I following a whim and being flighty? I felt trapped. Trapped by what my family expected of me. Trapped in a business I didn’t want anymore. Trapped in LIFE! I truly believe this is what was causing my mental health issues. Fear and feeling trapped.
But you know what. Fear is a HORRIBLE neighborhood to live in! Feeling trapped is a pretty ghetto hood too. It colors your perception of everything in life, and I refuse to live there anymore. With my health issues, I was afraid to go on disability because I couldn’t make money if I wasn’t working. I was trapped in a life I was starting to hate, feeling no way out, seeing no way out, and the doctors were worried I would end it, to be honest.
I’m too lazy to end it, and I really do love living, so it never crossed my mind. But I no longer have those fears. My vision of my future is so clear, I see it better than my reality right now. I see freedom from fear. Freedom to follow my passion and travel. Financial freedom so I can be independent and free for the first time in my life! Do you understand that hunger in me?! I want to follow my passions of being a foster mommy to large breed dogs. I want to be a crazy cat lady to more nakids. I will be that old lady in a turban & caftan wearing my pearls as I do business in my hanging Papizan egg chair by the pool under the palm trees. When I’m not actually in the tropics under the palm trees there lol
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